Indirect Serial Killer

1.

I watch him as he walks in

The fear all over his face

New faces, new people

The start in a new place

“It gets easier”, he’s told

But no one ever knows when

How long does he have to hold on

Before it’s his untimely end

Because I was once in his place

It’s not hard to know what to say

But the cautious look he has

Seems to put him on display

Ridicule and name calling

It’s all just a part of our age

But, I know how he feels

I was once in that stage

He isn’t open at all

You can tell he’s been hurt

Every move that I make

Puts him on alert

No matter how hard I try

Trust is never present

Maybe he likes being alone

Maybe he likes being unpleasant

Because I was once in his place

Even with these feelings

I never think to give up

We all have our dealings

Soon we both began to change

We both begin to transform

And along the way

I begin to sense his storm

It’s dark there

Just what has he been through?

With all of the pain that he has

How is he making do?

2.

Because I was once in his place

I realize the signs first

It’s him, I realize

He’s slowly become my curse.

I become him

I soon become his facade

After all of this

Well, is he a fraud?

It’s too late now

There’s no going back

He becomes me

And suddenly I’m off track

I can sense it

But I just can’t stop

The lies keep coming

I can feel my heart drop

The “I’m just tired”

And the fading will to live

I’m him, and he’s me

And it’s nothing I can forgive

He magically gets better

While I’m left here dying

Getting better that quickly?

Surely it takes more trying.

3.

Soon he’s gone

I’m officially alone

He’s accomplished his goal.

Time to sit on his throne.

With smugness and approval

He watches me walk away

He got what he wanted

Why else should he stay?

Old faces, old people

It’s like no one cares

Slowly but determinedly

I trudge up the stairs

Because I am in his place

And it’s now coming to an end

No one’s here now

No one to watch me descend

Repeat

“This is good, he thinks

All eyes on her stone

She became who I falsely was

Right down to the bone

“Feel remorse”, she shouts

As I stand there and wonder

How hard it must be

To scream from 6 feet under

Her mom cries loudly

Tells everyone how kind she was

Suicide is never the answer

No matter what the cause

Dear Mommy, it’s you

You should’ve taught her better

Should’ve told her not to befriend

The sad boy in the sweater

Well, now it’s time again

Time to find a new mark

She’ll be just as naive

And constantly kept in the dark

I’ve mastered the “sad” expression

Perfect “lonely” appearance

The thing the girls lack

Is obvious better coherence

She watches me walk in

The “fear” all over my face

And she’ll understand everything

Because she was also once in my place